Hello Again!

Hello again, my friends,

Remember me?
It has been exactly 5 years since my last entry on my blog as of December 2011. Wow! Time flies.
So much life's memories, joy & struggles have been lived since....

I decided to start this discipline again today with no expectations or goals to meet but to just simply put my day's thoughts here. A very poignant year for me to return because it is a turning point in my life as I've reached that magic benchmark age of 50 since April. Yikes!

For some people, it's no big deal. It's just another birthday. It's just a number.
For me, it's has been a "wake up" call and a soul searching opportunity to re-evaluate what has worked and what has NOT worked in my life thus far in all areas of life.

Being ME...an easily bored, require more fun, sometimes crazy & definitely a free-spirited WOMAN!
Marriage ( Our age differences and our years together, approaching 14 years next April)
Family (Defining what's real, what's a loving family and where I belong and feel at "home")
Career ( ...or lack of it because I have been a stay home wife and taking an opportunity to create a creative outlet to have some form of success in this area)
Finance. (My husband's corporate career is ending so our lifestyle will be different and new challenges ahead to be more resourceful)
Health. ( Menopausal stage in life to accept & a new body to learn)
Self-Esteem. ( Happy in my own skin. Defining MYSELF from others (social media) expectations and/or judgements
Total FREEDOM to be YOURSELF!

I will share my thoughts candidly as I blog these areas as each day unfolds.
It's my personal time to be brutally honest to create the life I really what you live.
You will know when it is the right time for you. I hope by sharing that you will know, you are not alone in this journey of life. It's a gift. Lets give it the attention it deserves.

A common question I have been asking myself this past 6 months....
Does this person/relationship or situation brings positive, joy, peace, happiness or negative, drama or  pain in my life?

To change it...Are you willing to learn to walk away from pain & gravitate toward the joy?
Are you willing to learn new disciples?
Of course, some areas will be more challenging than others to change. Learning to walk away from people is the hardest for me but it's a must to reach your peace.

It starts and ends with YOU! It's UP TO YOU. It's YOUR LIFE. Only YOU have the power to change. You can't change people or circumstances around you but you can only change YOU.

We are human. We are still learning...
For me, I can only hope that my next 50 years will be even better when I am open to learn, to share, to express and to explore new disciplines & new perspectives.

This resonates with me today. I hope it does for you too.
One Day At a Time:
This is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone.
Do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering. Unknown author.

May we focus on just TODAY... with a grateful heart & with more JOY!
Let's be thankful for whatever God gives us today and make it count.


Namaste,
Hai

Where Have I been?

Since accomplishing my 100 days of blogging everyday without missing a single day on Oct 14,  2011, I took a two weeks break! 

I am in class nowadays with Oprah!   I have been in Oprah's Life Classes in my office, with my Teddy Bear nearby on the sofa. I am in front of my computer each day to catch up with all her lessons for me! 

My personal classroom with Oprah!

There are SO MANY wonderful lessons Oprah offers to aid each one of us to live our BETTER LIFE FULLY!!!

I have learned so much about myself with Oprah's life lessons thus far,  to help me face myself HONESTLY with self-examinations.

I've learned that we all tend to operate our lives from EGO more than we should. I have learned there are so many more of SELF-barriers for me to break through like, 

To forgive and let go of anger! 

To become what I believe, 

To speak my truth will set me free to live the life I want, 

To create and share JOY with others,  

To know I have a calling and to be who I am meant to be AND it doesn't have to be a HUGE thing like Oprah. My highest calling fulfill my heart is being a wife and a mom in my peaceful charming home.

I am 100% responsible for my life, 

To learn to listen to my inner voice more clearly when life speaks to me in a whisper,  and...

I love, love the saying, "when you know better, you do better."

I have a current ongoing project for myself~ to create a vision board with the life I dream for myself is SO MUCH fun!!!!!!!

An area on my porch I give myself permission to dream and post them on this framed vision board

Each lesson provides a worksheet of questions for us to answer on each topic. They have helped me reveal the areas of my life that I need to improve more or that I am on track, in order to live a better ME.

I am a working progress...

These are my dreams & wishes that will manifest to me!

I am so grateful to have Oprah as my teacher and my classroom on the Internet each day. I look forward to come in my office, sit down with my coffee or tea to LEARN about my LIFE.

Sometimes I feel isolated in my private, quite world that I have been trying so hard to shut out all the bad noises of the world. I love to keep my peaceful and serene world in the woods and I go out of my way to protect that.  Now I have good company with Oprah's Life Classes to tune in and enrich my life even more. Thank you, Oprah! Welcome to my home!

To all my friends and family out there:

May you find your teacher, whether it is Oprah's Life Classes or any other teachings? Please keep learning and exploring about yourself in the environment that compliments you and open the path to your heart and soul. 

With Love & Light,

Hai