Class Reunion~ Day 10

We got a call from James’ classmate  to let him know that their annual class reunion was going to be this weekend. Since, I just arrived from a long 11 hours trip to be together with him, he told his friend we probably wouldn’t make it.

Well, we are in the car to make that trip to surprise his buddies today! My husband is 18 years old again this morning! Excited, speeding and hyper to make a 6 hours trip to Gibson City, Illinois.  He even spiked up his hair! I love his forever-young energy! Yes! That’s whom I am married to.

His class reunion has set him back to his High School years and all the great memories he still holds.  He came from a small town and the closeness with his classmates is still forever strong today. Ever since we have been married, I became that part of his visits home and we always try to connect with his buddies, regardless of having a class reunion or not! I have gotten to know them and became a part of his group as well. They are SO NICE!

The contrasts of “his” and “my” high school memories are so far apart. We compare our memories often.

He was a popular guy! He was and still is a very well liked among his High School Classmates. They even voted for him as their class KING! Wooooo! He is forever known for his many leadership roles as President of the Student Counsel, Co-Captain of the Football Team but mostly the nicest popular, good-looking duke in school! I so can see all that and believe it ALL!  He hasn’t changed a bit!

And then there was mine…

I was a shy, quite geek!  I was lost in the crowd. I wasn’t even in the radar anywhere! Ha-ha

As nice as he still is, he would always tell me, Had we grown up in the same town, that “ I would have noticed you and would be crazy about you! “ Awwww….  Only if he didn’t graduate from High School when I was 3 years old! LOL ha-ha

It is so interesting to me how we all still can remember and define ourselves as what we thought we were in those years! Some were wonderful memories and others were just plain painful memories going through our adolescence years!

I find that some people are stuck in those years as their “Glory Days”. And then, there are those who grew up to became MORE of who they were in those high school years as well!

I also observe with girls and guys that were popular, they still hang on to those years even longer!  I find that’s funny!

You are so much more than those years but yet we all carry a big part of those years with us in our adult lives.

What’s up with that?

I guess that’s because people are forever young! And when they go back to their High School Class Reunion, they automatically revert back to their glory days of youth!

For those who had the “best years in High School” enjoy talking and remembering those wonderful days.

For those who didn’t have such great memories, they don’t enjoy looking back or don’t have the good times to talk to anyone at class reunion.

I can emotional & intellectually see the purpose of High School Reunions. It’s great to relate to a group of people that came from the same era of growing up with you, liking to same music, events and styles, You enjoyed and compete in the same sports, clubs, school activities, even remember the same teachers that influenced you the most.

More importantly, I hope Class Reunions are there to enrich our adult lives to make new friends that you didn't relate or got to know in those High School years!  And it’s also fun to see how other people in your same class have changed in personalities and looks.

We might even like some of them even better, NOW, than when we were in High School! Hopefully, our maturity and scope of life has become wider to befriend those in High School that were not considered in your “cliques.” 

As my daughter is going through her high school years, I always remind her to be friends with all students, especially the geeks and the quite ones. One day, you may be working for them! :)

I also believe, the core of who you were then in High School, your personality don’t alter to the extreme that you tend to be drawn to the like- minded people as adults when you get there!

To me, the main purpose of any Class Reunion is to connect with each other and to make NEW memories!

And the beat goes on…. And on… and on…. and on …

With Love & Light,

Hai

Living with the big "D"

During my Friday's lunch date with my husband today, I witnessed a very sweet, endearing act of unselfish love from two adult parents with their two little girls. Their daughters seem to be 4 and 7 years old.   It was obvious that the parents were divorced but they had a nice lunch together as a family then walked outside to their separate cars. The little girls, happily waved to say " Bye Mommy!" and she said, "Have a good time!" as she walked toward her van by herself.  The girls skipped happily to follow their Dad toward his sports car. 

Now, why didn't that happened for my daughter when I was divorced?  If more parents can be that way for our children, more divorced children would be more well-adjusted and happier kids, regardless of the parents, the adults, decisions to no longer be married or live together.

It triggers my sad memories of my own "exchange" to have my little girl to spend her time with me, as a single parent, on my weekends. It was SO BAD, that the other set of parents would have already prepped her to not want to go with me for a fun weekend. Instead, the agenda with my child would play out, as if she was going with a MONSTER, a criminal or an ax- murder, instead of going to the loving arms of her own Mother.  It got so bad, that on some weekends, I had to prey my child's embrace away from the Step Mom in order to get my own little girl in my car while my Ex stood by, playing the manipulator, enjoying every minute of the manipulations among women and child. It was sickening!  My stomach still feels all those anguished moments right now. UGH!

Today's observation stirred up one of the SADDEST parts of my life, and the tough journey I took,  and still must take to learn more lessons of being a Mother to my beautiful daughter.

Not to rehash the past, but I am still living with that awful divorce and the effects it had on my child. She has been so manipulated that she continues to be confused, still today.  Not knowing what to believe in her parents, she carries hatred for both parents, instead of any of the comforts that come with having loving parents. :(

As Step Mom #1 has now moved on (ex's 2nd marriage ended in divorce),  Step Mom #2 has stepped in.  And I have step aside.

Since I've learned from the first around of the games, I choose not to continue to participate in the tug-of-war. It is the hardest LOVE I've ever had to do...TO LET GO of my daughter until she is older, until she understands more and has her own clear thoughts to know, who her Mom is ! But, more importantly, no matter what her life circumstances are or will be, she will ALWAYS have a Mom who loves her very much!~ but only in her own time, and not on my timeline! 

I am taking that risk everyday with my daughter  that she might never know who her mom truly is. It is the RISK I am taking to LOVE her the best way I know how right now! It's not the easiest, but it's the only right path for me from my heart. Only God & Time can help as she grows up to have her own mind, her own thoughts and her own consciousness.  I pray she will find her peaceful place between her parents.   

My reward has been few and in between for many years, but as of lately, my teenager daughter has been requesting to be with me, her Mom, on her own free will.  :)

I am grateful and I love being with her whenever she wants to be with me, without any expectations from me. Meanwhile, I still live my adult life, fully, healthily, and happily when she is not here. 

I will never stop being her Mom, nor will she ever cease being my daughter. 

Everything else in between is just life! 

Divorce has become a way of life, more as the "NORM" for our society than not!

I am one of them to contribute into the sad statistics of a divorced family. I personally have lived through my own bitter experiences, like so many you, as parents out there. (As I write about it today, I am still at a loss for words, with many feeling about this journey~ (Forgive me if I sound disjointed in writing this) 

I sure don't have all the answers! I am still seeking my own answers! But I do want to share some encouraging words with you.  At this junction in my life of carrying a badge of being a divorced parent for 13 years, this is what I believe...

We, as parents must live a happy, healthy life of our own, and in some cases, move on for our own children's sake, in order for THEM to move on! Your children or your ex partner(s) cannot control you unless you are willing to give them that power. Live your own journey without guilt or manipulation, and keep your heart wide open! 

Only you can carry on with your own journey, as life does go on...

No more, if only this or that, if only  I knew more, try harder, be better or  be different. As parents and as an individual, you did the best you could, given where you were and what you knew ( with information too ) to make YOUR best decisions for you and your children. End of that story!  

It's only just a story. Now, go make new ones!

Children, young or old in any divorce situation deal with it differently, and mature out of it at different ages.  We, as parents must keep our faith and unyielding love available for our child(ren), no matter how long it takes to help them know that you love them! They must love themselves too and accept their family circumstances and that should NOT stop them from having a happy & healthy life for themselves!  

Life goes on...

Have FAITH & LOVE with TIME to heal all wounds.

With Love & Light,

Hai

A smaller footprint ~ Day 8

My husband & I had a great soulful connection about my yesterday's blog... 

It was very "revealing" but it also a real slice of life that some people don't want to talk about and that's okay. :)  Judge or be judged, it is LIFE in raw form! 

Until you walk in the other person's footstep, you will never truly FEEL or understand it but by sharing, you give out the human lessons to be learned without walking that path.  You find that most people can relate! You are NOT alone! We learn from each other so we can, hopefully live our lives better!

You will find that I will write more matters of the heart, peaceful existence and the simple life lessons each day gives us. I tend to get bored with small talks at times. It's okay to also talk about the "fluffs "and not have so deep conversations all of the time. But by nature, I crave to have that DEEP, meaty, meaningful conversations to fill up my soul most of the time. With deep meanings and significant for life, I feel deeply, live deeply and share deeply. 

But today, it's going to be on a lighter side... :)

I took a slow walk with Teddy, my peek-a-poo dog this morning to start my day! We followed the crooked gravel paths and I looked all around me to see a new way of life, in a different light. At first, I thought, what am I doing here? This is crazy!...  Or is it?  

I soaked in the delightful weather; no longer miss the Georgia's heat & humidity. The day I left there and driving thru TN and KY to reach Ohio, the heat index for these states were up to 110 degrees! I needed some cooler weather relief and I am so glad to be here in my husband's arms again.

Enjoying this morning's weather in the 70's in the middle of July is heaven, and being mindful of my surroundings among the huge trees, hearing the wind howling by the leaves in a playful dance above me.  I noticed on each small lot of land, there is a RV or a trailer, a reflection of someone's life, someone's footstep in life.. From big to small RVs lining up with their own individual gravel path, a small patio area and a fire pit with folded chairs around it to enjoy their evenings.  Some of these are permanent sites as their year around homes and others are here for just the summer. This is a new experience for me. I've never been exposed to the RV, campsite living before this year. It's so basic, so real, so quite and so peaceful here. People are at ease, friendly and smiling!

There are young families with children sitting out at the table to eat their breakfast, a man tinkering with a fishing box on his beach lounge chair, a young couple, putting up their tent from an overnight stay.

Further up, I watched an old man in his 70's with a bright plastic red pitcher in hand, coming out from his small door of his home; a more of a permanent RV home site here. He walked slowly and with purpose with that red pitcher.  Then, I saw him poured the water in that pitcher onto his tiny garden of flowers with a peaceful smile!  He waved, "good morning" to me and I did the same with a smile back! 

The simple joy in that moment of his day to care for his small sunflower garden, made me wonder about his life and his long journey, he has taken on this same earth, to just be happy to be here today with his garden. 

Continuing on with my day as I walked back to our own RV. 

My thought was how much more do we need other than this smaller footprint on our earth to really be happy?   How big is your space or your home that you must occupied, that would make you any happier?  Matter of fact, the bigger the home, the more stuff we own, the more stress, more responsibility, and required more energy to work for it, to maintain it, and to pay for it and does it truly make you happier or more peaceful?  

I've lived through many houses and many lifestyles with "stuff" before in my life. I've lived in huge million dollar homes, mid-size homes, high-rises, condos in the city, studios, to my little cottage in the woods and add,  in a RV. I am the happiest today in our RV and to be peaceful in my days and to be with the one I love the most!  

What if this is all we need to enjoy our life together in this smaller footprint on earth?  It's more freeing to be with nature and have a small, comfortable place to rest at night. And we have the day to do what you want to do instead what we have to because we all have become slaves to our own  debts of wanting more. We would have so little responsibility and stress with less. Our days are slower and we only need so little to enjoy our lives! 

I find, as I get older, I am the happiest with less than more! No more worries about staying up with the Jones, no more worries about that perfect image of false sense of success,  no more worries of having the right house, the right car and the right career. We are most happy following my own bliss and living out our simple heart... only if you are so not so afraid of what others think about you! 

Actually, people think more about themselves daily than about you so, forget about that nonsense!  
Who cares, anyway?

What if we allow ourselves to be on a vacation mode permanently with less stress, less traffic, with less "trappings" of things in our society to be lighter, happier and more peaceful? 

Would you be willing to let go of all your "material things", your "stuff" that are weighing you down, stressing you out today and trade in for a simpler life with happiness and peaceful in stored for you each day? 

Think about that and can you apply the philosophy of "Less is More?"

With Love & Light,

Hai

Keep SEX HOT! ~ Day 7

This is a HOT & steaming blog, today....To let my readers know, it's not just the "sex" that I am contributing only when I write about it. It's more than that so keep on reading...!

If this sounds too "HOT" for you, stay out of the kitchen as they say. If "SEX" is a topic you are embarrassed about and don't want to read about it now, stop here and close the article so that I will not have to put a mirror in front of your sexuality by sharing my own journey, today! 

By the way, there's nothing I won't write about in the next 93 days, as long as I can pull the words and insights from my own experiences.

Shall we go on? ...

Being married before, I knew going into my second marriage, it was going to be different! :)

There are many other ingredients of showing LOVE that we put into our marriage to keep the butterflies around... To keep it loving, fun, meaningful, passionate and HOT!   When there are other languages of love and/or combinations of them in any relationship (especially for us, women), SEX becomes a fun way to express that LOVE we all hold! 

God created us all to be a sexual, sensual being. It's a gift from above!!! Thank you, LORD!!!!! :)

It's so true in my marriage and holy smokes; it does win kudos in every other area of life your James and me!!!  I had to learn, SEX is the most SACRED and the most FUN part of being married! I didn't know that for a very very long time as a woman and as a lover until I own my own sexual maturity to celebrate, to play and to share that strong aura of being a part of which I am... a sexual, sensual woman!

Sex means a lot of things for each person and how he/she holds S.E.X for them!

Admittedly, I've had my share of major sexual issues, growing up! The forbidden thing happened to me...Sex was STOLEN from me prematurely and it was used as a manipulation over my fear of " not being wanted or being loved in a home"...! Sex holds mixed emotions for me as a child. It was something dirty but it also brought forbidden pleasures I didn't know it holds over my body at the same time.  That awaken my sexuality, too young to grasp & be at peace with my sexuality and my body. I was tormented in my mind while the emotional reactions my body gives out with mixed sensations. 

So, I started out, in this journey, holding sex as something dirty and not sacred at all. It was something I had to do and to "block it out" and "disappear" during the act until it was over. My curse for my quilt!

Moreso, I learned to escape through sex in my adult years!  It became my addiction!  I wanted sex when I was happy.  I wanted sex when I was angry. I wanted sex when I was bored.  I wanted sex when I was sad. I wanted sex when I was in a numb stage too long. I wanted to "feel" something, anything again, to just know I am still here in the human race. To feel another body's warmth against my skin... shamelessly to feed my ego and to feed my path, my curse  I only knew.   

It became a drug for me, something like "getting a hit" from sex. No feelings attached. I took from it, as I will not give anything back from my soul into it! I got the mechanics down to give pleasures and to get pleasures. Forget about the sacredness part of sex in those days. It was a vice from a sexual abuse victim's  and/ or from any low self-esteem woman's perspective.

Sex, oddly enough; became my confidence, my shield, entering into my many dysfunctional relationships, affairs and the games of manipulations with men.  I hold the control over not letting any man control me, especially in bed; ever again as it was "stolen" from me.  Unaware or not wanting to own my many "warped" sexual issues, I entered my first marriage in hopes to escape my past, looking for home & love, but that came up short. Eventually, it destroyed that marriage. I admit to be responsible for 50% part of my fail marriage but it does take two for a marraige or a relationship to make it or break it.  Both partners must own his/her role in it. 

I always ask, " What part did "I" play in the "success" or "failure" of any relationship or situation?" Until we are totally honest with ourselves, we can not be "free" to the mind of our own ego to keep us living "small" or keep us " trapped" in our own hidden fears and we will never break our bad cycle! 

I share from my heart that I came from a very unhealthy view about sex to reach to this stage in my passionate, HOT sexual marriage today! :) I didn't switch over night. I had to care front my many demons through personal development courses, counseling and self-growth! Most important step, I had to look at myself in the mirror! My book was my mirror to "come to terms with my past life."  That book also brought me ONE reader to see my heart, among my many stories of my journey told in those 315 pages. He married, wanted my heart, hidden inside of my many facades and the many stories being told. He saw me with my untouched heart, not my circumstances!

My marriage to my husband, James, is the only man who understood, with his kindness, gentleness, respect and unyielding love to help bring out my HEART that I’ve hidden so deeply in the abyss within my sensual being. 

I don't live in a bubble as I travel, live and flirt with and within our society to say I have had outside offers from men to "play," still today. BUT,  my past cycle has been broken.  I am not the same person nor  I,  no longer a victim to be lured of "having another a hit." I FINALLY found and claim my sacred gift to being "high" for a lifetime on a daily basis with my husband as I OWN my body, my heart and my sexuality from a deeper place of forgiveness and that transend my soul into a higher level of vibrations with life!

Only, In The Arms of Love, (c) in our marriage that my sexual liberation came alive spiritually and it allows me to accept all the FUN in all that sensations my body feels.   And it wants to PLAY with the only man who taught me love, marriage and "forever."  I totally trust this man and that my heart opens to LIFE. I no longer detach from sex but that both our hearts are in the middle and alive in the act of sex, sharing our sacred love with our lovemaking.  

Love is the KEY to HOT SEX to sustain for more than just one nightstand or a couple years! Love manifests HOT sex in a marriage for a lifetime! Love brings forth ecstasy to LIFE! 

Otherwise, it's only the mechanics of sex that will keep you addicted to it. It's just a "hit” or another "high" that keep you seeking for more and looking for love in all the wrong places!

Listen to your heart and be true to it and it will cue you along your path to finding it! 

Your inner voice will call you out with warning signs of  "cold', "warm" "HOT" to get where you should be! :) 

Be brave and make a change. For anything to change, you must be willing to change yourself first!

Shhhhhhhhh..................... What is your heart telling you now?

With Love & Light,

Hai

Will Travel for Love~ Day 6

After 11 hours of traveling to see my honey, I am a tired puppy, needless to say, so it's going to be a short blog tonight. :)

I still get butterflies in my stomach, anxiously anticipating to see my lover today, going on 9 years...

Our full love affair story will be blogged on another day... 

May our flames never go out... and for now, there are flames needing my attention!

So, good night to all you lovers out there!

Go LIVE, LOVE with Passion today!

With Love & Light,
Hai

"Lost in Translation?"~ Day 5

I am now made aware of my new journey of blogging and the power of my words and/or my stories that I put out there for translations. 

It is from where the readers/viewers are to translate what they read, see and understand.  

I must stay true to myself to send out my vibrations, my energy as I share in my blogs from my heart. As a writer, I am learning to accept all comments and misunderstandings with gratitudes. And I do soooo sincerely, to grow as a person and as a writer!

It also helps to go back to my current meditation practices ( I am a very new student). It's philosophy is to set no judgements or clinging to any results to new actions and/or reactions. 

LIFE is what it is and you are in the flow of your own reality as the world teaches you new lessons in one moment at a time, in one breath at a time and in.... ONE DAY AT A TIME! 

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Dear co-creator friends;

Thank you so kindly for "commenting" on my blog of Day 4 in my title "Who's Oprah". Please don't take my title literally that I don't know who she is or heard of her AT ALL. I also did say in my blog that "I am NOT unaware or completely out of the loop" about the world around me via internet without owning or watch TV for 12 years. 

The essence of my short story was my way to convey " my personal experience" with Oprah's extraordinary gift in touching people's lives"  For me, it was this week to begin my blog! Yes, you can read, hear, see, google millions of stars, and famous personalities out there in our world today IS very easy no matter where you live. I live in Georgia. 

My  blog was about my "personal experience" to be effected by the icon like Oprah, of which SHE has helped me take the 100 days challenge and beyond to make me think to do my small part in the world. ( It was also, all in fun too, to say, even after her show is off the air that I finally got the message for me!). I finally got to  "KNOW"  her in this magazine to catch up on her  25 years of touching people's lives and it wasn't through a TV or her Oprah Show FOR ME. :) That's in a nut shell.

At the end of the day, it's not so imoprtant where, when or  how you know of Oprah but did she make a difference for you,  to personally make a "change"  or help you make a "transformation?" 

She did for me this week! For that I thank Oprah's vibrations to get my "aha's moment!

I hope this reply can help clear your questions and/or any misunderstanding of my intentions on that blog. My style of writing is quite different too. :)

With Love & Light,

Hai

Who's Oprah???? ~ Day 4

This may sound CRAZY for most people today when I say; I don't own or watch TV since 1998!  

Why that year?  It was the year of my divorce at the age of 32. I was ending an unhappy marriage and starting my life all over again! I was getting ready to turn the page of a new way of life.  

I am not against TV for others! I get mixed reactions on this subject. I get "Woo, are you kidding me?" or "Well, good for you, I should do that too!" and that's the end of our icebreaker small talks! Soooo, on to the next person across the room for them to chat about their favorite movie stars and the latest Reality TV shows!

  

For me, I just made a conscious choice to live without it and to mindfully CUT OFF all the noises in that black square tube.  That black box in the middle of the room, over time has fed my mind with so many mixed signals about life, love, success and happiness!  I grew to mistrust TV for its false sense of reality and it confused my mind & my heart out here as I struggled to find my own place in this world.

Granted, it also was a very useful tool to help me learn my English at a younger age.  For that, I am very grateful!

Television played a HUGE part in my life. It has influenced my growing up years to assimilate and adapt to America, with the good & the bad in my transitions to become the All- American girl.  But, I took it to heart and thought life in America was supposed to be like what I saw on TV.  I also lived many parts of it in real life with my “well -to- do" but dysfunctional adopted family too. 

 Some people even have a TV in every room as a part of their lifestyle. Watching TV is like eating and breathing for them. It's a way of life.  It can be your best friend, your entertainment resources, and your white noise on a lonely night. I totally GET it!  But somehow, my life wasn't any better because of it and it didn't align with my soul until I grew up, matured enough to find my own inner voice to make a stand. 

With the hyperactive social media maniac world we live in today, millions of people CAN'T live without their TVs and all kinds of other entertainment tubes out there as a vice.  It's part of our American culture! I am clueless and NOT up to date with it all but I do get sound bites of what's happening in the world through the Internet as I pick and choose those sound bites. So, I am not so unaware or completely out of the loop!

My commitment to "No TV" in my life was still strong when I met the love of my life in 2003. I was getting ready to get married again!  I made a gentle but strong stand that I wanted US to live without TV in our marriage.  "Is that okay with you?" I asked my husband to-be. 

Okay, so it wasn't going to be a deal breaker if he said. “No, that's not okay." But, I was prepared to work something out BEFORE we walk down the "forever, I do" lane, AGAIN, for both of us! 

But he said, "No problem!" So, still today, we do not own a TV!

Anyway, all this to say, with no TV in my life, I also missed one of the most "inspiring" great shows on Television!  But perhaps, for the past 12 years, I wasn't ready!  It wasn't the right time for me or the right path to reach me! 

I was too busy putting all my broken pieces together. I even had to travel across the world to go find my many lost & found pieces to put my little life together first! Life spurred me on to "Go find who you are at this junction in your life".  And in that junction, I discovered "writing" to help me find me!  Eventually I  had to published my painful "autobiography" as my way to let it go in order to heal before I could move forward with my new life. 

I do believe strongly in this phrase "When the student is ready, the right teacher will come."

It was this year, 2011 that my husband's job took us back to the city living, part- time; away from my hidden little cottage in the woods, without a TV to Westlake, Ohio; a suburb of Cleveland. We lived in a city apartment above my favorite shopping hub of Crocker Park and in this small one bedroom apartment, they furnished us with 2 TVs, as if it's an automatic requirements of daily living! lol haha 

Whenever I travel to be with my husband in the city, I have no weeds to pull, no dogs to walk and no chores like at our cottage, in the woods, that require of my time. Apartment living in the city gave me more "dead time" to be curious enough to turn on a TV to see what's in there nowadays. 

There was a lot of hype about Oprah's Final Farewell Show.  Even on my FB postings! Many sound bites as I read from friends I respected and care for to say, "You must watch it!" And so I did...  I loved it!  WOW! I was amazed with all the Superstars that came to Surprise Oprah in her Extravaganza Show. Great entertainment for sure and I got many nuggets from her show and posted on FB in real time that week!  She made me think, how am I contributing to the world?  I can only response with a big humble swallow of disappointment for myself.

Turning off the TV, I was still in awe! I was inspired of what one life (Oprah’s) can do and to give back to the Universe with her bright lights and positive vibrations in waves throughout the world.  God granted her many blessings! WOW! WOW!   But then, I discounted it with a thought, she's a legend in that black tube box they called television. 

It's not so real-to-real life or for us common folks.  So, it wasn't the TV that impacted me the most about the Oprah Show. It was seer entertainment during my "wasting" time in the apartment! 

One day, at the Atlanta Int'l Airport, while waiting for my husband's plane to land, I picked up the Oprah's " Official Commemorative Edition " magazine with a title  "Behind the Scenes of 25 Incredible Years." on a magazine rack.  I fondly enjoyed the review of what I saw on TV that day but I brought it home with me because there were so many sections of "looking back of the 25 years" that I missed so I wanted to catch up on who's Oprah and what is she all about? 

I took it home with me and it lays there, like so many other reading materials to read on another day. This week, I finally open it; I read page-by-page, underlined, and highlighted, put stars by so many, nuggets that spoke to me. I tended to skip the movie stars parts but soaked in intensely about Oprah's humble beginnings of realness and the inspiring stories she shared about the average folks that I can relate to. 

What spoke to me from where I was sitting are these words...

~ " You are 100% responsible for your life" (that stayed with me LOUD and CLEAR from that TV black screen in the apartment!)

~"All of life is about growing to your personal best- and that means continuously taking new challenges"

~"... I use my stage only for that which uplifts and brings lights" ~

~ " I've always believed that life is sweeter when you share it"~

~The most important lesson of all: that we are all worthy of love and happiness, you alone are enough."

~Finally, her last sentence in her "My Love Letter to You" with a call for ACTION!  

" Everybody has a calling and your real job in life is to figure out what that is"

Oprah SPURRED me forward to be here in blogging to the world!    I am here to take on a new challenge, to share, to hopefully uplifts and contribute my vibrations because I AM enough to make a difference in the world.

 So, BLOGGING and SHARING my thoughts, experiences from my own journey, not afraid anymore of exposing my "not so perfect" English to "uplifts & brings my lights" from a small corner of my world to those who will read it as I put it out there into the Universe. 

Thank you for allowing me to at least trying to do my part to figure out what is my calling in my writing to you.

Thank you, Oprah for coming into my life when I needed you most, but only AFTER you left that square black box! :)

May each one of us take a brave step toward finding your calling! You are enough!

With Love & Light,

Hai